Absof*ckinglutely!!

That was all bullsh*t!

H didn’t even read my pocketbook-thick paper yet he argued with me like that? So what’s he’s point? That he’ll soon have that fancy two-letter D-R that will be attached to his name? That’s it? So that’s what makes him think that he’s Einsteinish intelligent? The heck!

He didn’t even notice what my KSF’s were. He didn’t even know about the current piracy issues i was talking about! what’s wrong with all you gay professors about us girls at your front defending our point of views when all you got are those guys sucking the money out of your super ego-istic prides (yes, i’m angry)!

Of course i know that forex thing. Why shouldn’t I? I even monitor it day by day because of the nature of my work. So what’s the big deal on praising me about it? What’s that for? It’s like everyone who has a common sense would know about it. It’s as simple as 1+1. Doesn’t he even know? How pathetic!

You know what’s wrong with all these panelists who’d sit  in front of you trying to argue their points and outsmart everyone else in the room…They’ll try to show us how smart they think they are that they wouldn’t even have an open mind about your f*cking explanations about your stupid paper!

So what’s the point of not sleeping the whole night and not eating the whole day only until dinner because you’re trying to perfect your g*ddamn paper? They didn’t even gave a sh*tty look at it!

wtf do i really want…?

Damn! Why do i feel this certain feeling that i think i’m kinda hurting..i could feel a small hole inside my chest that’s creeping in my nerves and pumping through my heart…

Why do i’m feeling this kinda rebellious, bi*chy, lost, distracted, asphyxiated, all these dark words that i could relate with this pathetic feeling inside my chest. Why am i starting to learn cursing, all these bad stuffs that aren’t showing the ‘me’ that I’ve known…

What do i really want out of this f*ck*ng life…It seems so dark that i could relate the word s**c**e on it…Damn NO!

This is not me!

I wanna live again..

Eventually, the sunrise will come…

My Ipod’s Hitlist for the Week

1. Super Massive Black Hole by The Muse

2. Leave out all the Rest by Linkin Park

3. Flightless Bird, American Mouth by Iron & Wine

4. Our Time is Running Out by The Muse 

5. Echo by Trapt

6. Lullaby by The Spill Canvas

7. Breathe Me by Sia

8. Over and Over by Three Days Grace

9. Sunsets and Car Crashes by The Spill Canvas

10. Into the Ocean by Blue October

11. Someone to Love by Fountains of Wayne

12. Starlight by The Muse

13. Oh Star by Paramore

14. Addicted by Saving Abel

15. I Miss You Love by SilverChair

16. Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol

17. Dancing in the Moonlight by Switchfoot

18. When I’m Gone by 3 Doors Down

19. Why Does It Always Rain On Me by Travis

20. Secret Oath by The Spill Canvas

Edward!

 Dammit!!! I’ve been sitting in front of this stupid paper since yesterday but i haven’t started even a single word on it…

So as proscrastination as keyword, i’m just gonna blog out something about this addictively twilight mania.

 I’ve read Regina’s article on Inquirer (”There will be blood”) last Friday and it made me realized my unconscious thoughts about the story. I agree with her, some part of the story made no sense at all. As my initial impression with Steph, her writing style obviously shows that she’s a newbie on this line. Inspite of the flaw on writing style, I’m still super inlove with the story  (honestly, with Edward). The plot is very good though and very creative. Some points I realized:

1. Bella’s got no special attibutes at all, and Steph could have given her sufficient description so her character could have been more interesting (aside from her clumsiness ofcourse).

2. Some of the lines were so cheesy to read (though i felt super kilig most of the time..hehe).

3. The story’s kinda reincarnation of Romeo and Juliet with a modern twist (i feel positive about this).

4. I just realized that many of us who are obssesed with Edward Cullen are kinda looking for a man who’s sort of dangerously sexy, protective, impossibly handsome, kinda rich, someone who could make us feel passionately loved (agree?).

5. Many thoughts that i couldn’t put into words yet… you may want to help me point them out.