-Ernest Hemingway
When you realize that you’re a rocker by heart…
January 30, 2009Me and my newly-met friends went out last night, well technically, this morning and went out to Strumms in Jupiter.I was amazed by the rock band “The Authority” when they played during the second set. They performed a number of eclectic songs which ranged from the 70’s, 80’s-and modern rock. The vocalist was truly talented, he made a jaw-dropping exhibitions with the organ. My body and my soul harmoniously synchronized with the beat of the drums and the pulsating keys of the organ. I wish I’m a rockstar…
I’m sure you/ll miss CSB too
January 26, 2009
Sigh… my days in CSB are already numbered. I feel excited about setting off a foot on the PICC stage, yet sad about thinking of leaving. I’m still here, feeling anxious about my thesis, yet i already miss school. There is something in the atmosphere of CSB that makes me feel lighthearted and young whenever I’m here. I’ve gained a number of bubbly and jovial friends who have different personalities but they create a very enjoyable group.
So i guess for me to better relish my every moment in CSB, i’m putting into a list the things i would definitely miss;
1. The 22-peso fresh mango shake that i buy in the cafeteria, especially during saturday mornings - so refreshing.
2. The Yakisoba which sometimes serve as my dinner.
3. The box-office hit Paotsin dumplings.
4. The zip locks that we use to wrap the books we borrow from the LRC. Sometimes, i get lazy to read those books because of these zip locks, as it takes time to get the books out of those plastics.
5. The gulaman in the mineral water bottle that often is mistakenly thought of as a toyo.
6. The squidballs at the back area and si Kuya who uses a pair of scissors to cut those squidballs in half, as if he’s a pro barber.
7. The clean comfort rooms which are everywhere in the premises, they sometimes serve as tambayan to those Korean girls who distractingly discuss their lovelives.
8. The long queue during adjustment periods. But this won’t loosen your temper because each one in the line is seated comfortably, how convenient.
9. SEX on Saturdays’ lunch. (that’s an acronym for those who don’t know)
10. The vending machine which sometimes get your 12 pesos in return of a hot water! (as usual - out of order)
11. The vandalisms on the doors of the CRs which discuss someone’s sex life, and the comments and replies on them.
12. The elevator door that doesn’t close even if you smack the close button with all your effort.
Cut
January 20, 2009Shoot! I mumbled as blood oozes out of my index finger, near the joint just above my nail. I didn’t realized it at first, haven’t felt anything. I didn’t notice until i saw the drops of blood staining my maple-colored desk. Only then that i felt this razor-sharp pain and i cursed silently. I held my finger and vehemently forced out the blood out of the broken skin. At a certain moment, i was afraid to touch the papers that surrounded me, as if they’re all gonna bite me. I panicked and I guessed I exaggerated.
I pondered on my thoughts and I arrived at things that worry me. I may not be conscious about those occurences that appear to be as problems only until I see them as problems. But what if i leave them all along to heal themselves eventually? Will it turn up to be an ugly scar on my pale complexion or will it just leave me an unremarkable wound that will leave as soon my leukocytes or any antibodies heal them. What if I don’t worry on things that’ll put wrinkles on my forehead, instead ignore them, and let them pass by.
All of these thoughts clouded up in my baffled brain, just because of one simple accident.
A papercut.
Daydreams
January 14, 2009I wish i could prolong this state of my mind where everything seems to go on my way. Everything is indefinite, no walls to lock in the occurences that erratically occupies my unconsciously conscious brain. Everything is possible as it seems to be. I’m loving the vivid images that swim sluggishly into my thoughts…thoughts of unimaginable luxury, the most beautiful places, and even moments i’m quite embarrassed to declare. Thoughts full of love, happiness, and contentment.
Only then that someone appeared annoyingly and distracted my only moments of unrealizable hopes.
I hate to think that these thoughts have to end…
And i gave up. I woke up to be brought back into veracity, of sometimes cruel world…
Suddenly…
January 13, 2009Suddenly…
i feel excited about
my future…
my present…
my past…
Funny how the three different times could crashed into one other.
It’s a euphoric feeling.
The most exciting part is the future ahead. Clear and well intended. The thing i planned and knowing that it is going well as it is. It seems so promising, and different. No one would know what would be the series of events then after. I could only see a blurry set of photos, but only i after i pressed the button that i will see the picture i’m taking, clearly. Future will be set only after my decisions, our decisions…how things and actions will collide.
The most enjoyabale part is the present. Moments that make you feel so young and carefree. Friends who would make you feel that being single is not a curse, as what others are making you feel, but a fortunate eccentricity for you to enjoy life, without the complications of a stricken-debilitated heart. These are the moments when you truly feel happy, sincerely happy - because of them.
The most memorable part is the past. Memories that are so long forgotten yet they come in a flash that would make you feel nostalgic about the things that had happened. The past which brought us all learnings and experiences that won’t make you do same all over again. Yet, we’re thankful, because somehow, the past shaped us and transformed us to who we are right now.
How i felt, can’t explain, it’s been a long while now, since i’ve felt something…
